I wrote something today and for some reason, I thought I could handle publishing it here. It’s obviously been a while since I’ve shared anything in this space but it’s still here and so am I.

11/26/2022 around noon.

It’s a beautiful fucking day today, so I raced inside to get my pen.
It’s not often I’m not writing about my inability to cope with the way life is lived here, but right now, in this moment, the wind sounds like the ocean.
The temperature is just right, my dog is by my side.
I feel my passions calling me from tucked away places in my gut.
Emotions swell up, from a life not lived well, but for now, I think I’ll dwell on the fact that I felt deep gratitude for this day even though I feel the intense weight of my pain.

I wasn’t trying to write a poem or a blog entry or anything for anyone really. I only wanted to document a moment where I felt good. After I was finished and I re-read what I had written, it reminded me of the word Balance. That was my word for the year a few years back and I think doing that helped me build a better relationship with the concept. I think I’ll re-visit those words for the year that I was doing for a while. Maybe I’ll do another next year.

until next time.